Boys are dumb

So, Teresa and I went out yesterday after I got back from the Botanical Gardens (Jean's field trip, hot but fun...and I got a sunburn). I filled her on the whole situation with Costa. So far, this is how it goes....I like him, he likes me, but both of us are too shit scared of something to do anything about it. He's apparently being all careful with me because he doesn't want to fuck anything up. That's great and all, I do respect the fact that he is considering all the factors that may affect whatever this thing that (hopefully) we will be getting into, but....I'm impatient. It's a flaw of mine....I know this...but he's driving me absolutely NUTS! Teresa is going through a similar situation with her crush, and (I don't care what he says), HE IS GIVING HER MAJOR "I LIKE YOU" SIGNALS! Why are these guys so shit scared! It's not like we are a bunch of teenage girls who have no idea what we are doing! I have been through relationships with guys before (it's not like Costa is the only guy I have ever liked in my life), why should I be treated like I haven't been?

Not that I have been all mature about this either....I have been all scared too about doing anything, primarily because I know that he has been through bad shit with girls in the past and I don't want to hurt him. I want him to be ready to do something, and not take him by surprise (although at this point, would it be by surprise?). All throughout his birthday "party" (I say party because he wasn't feeling well and we all kind of pooped out by 12), the two of us were running off to have "secret" conversations with our friends. It was very high school. I feel like sending him a note (via Liz and Alex, of course) saying "I heart you. Do you heart me? Check yes or no". It feels like we are back in the ninth grade.....

Oh well, at least this week I will maybe be going over to his place to watch Family Guy that I missed last week because we were watching Napoleon Dynamite. Maybe we will upgrade from a kiss on the cheek goodbye to a kiss on the lips? Probably not, but you never know if one of us will finally get the nerves to do SOMETHING!

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Why do I even bother?

Za is a fucktard. We knew this for a while, but today is the ultimate fucktard moment that he has had. I decided last night that instead of me dreading each party that the two of us are invited to for the rest of my life, I rather make peace with him (even though he is the one who needs to apologize to me!). So, in what I think was a very mature move on my part, I sent him this letter:

Za,

Due to the fact that we may be at the same parties or whatnot from now until whenever, I think we should have a truce of some sorts. I don’t want to have to avoid each other when we are at the same party. We don’t have to be best buds (we are a long way from that) however, we should be civil towards each other when we are at the same gathering.

Truce?

Robin

So, have I gotten a response from him yet? Nope. But, today on his away message (that's right, I checked it.Likeke you have never done anything like this), I find this as part of his profile: http://thejuice.baseballtoaster.com/archives/201440.html
It's essentially a link to this site that shows you this weird set of letters sent from an ex to another. His caption for the link is "Surprised I didn't get one of these!". What an asshole! Like after 3 years, I would even waste my time on his sorry ass! It's been 4 months, and we have had 2 major blowouts since the break-up that were HIS fault. UGH!

And I was trying to be mature.....