Boys are dumb

So, Teresa and I went out yesterday after I got back from the Botanical Gardens (Jean's field trip, hot but fun...and I got a sunburn). I filled her on the whole situation with Costa. So far, this is how it goes....I like him, he likes me, but both of us are too shit scared of something to do anything about it. He's apparently being all careful with me because he doesn't want to fuck anything up. That's great and all, I do respect the fact that he is considering all the factors that may affect whatever this thing that (hopefully) we will be getting into, but....I'm impatient. It's a flaw of mine....I know this...but he's driving me absolutely NUTS! Teresa is going through a similar situation with her crush, and (I don't care what he says), HE IS GIVING HER MAJOR "I LIKE YOU" SIGNALS! Why are these guys so shit scared! It's not like we are a bunch of teenage girls who have no idea what we are doing! I have been through relationships with guys before (it's not like Costa is the only guy I have ever liked in my life), why should I be treated like I haven't been?

Not that I have been all mature about this either....I have been all scared too about doing anything, primarily because I know that he has been through bad shit with girls in the past and I don't want to hurt him. I want him to be ready to do something, and not take him by surprise (although at this point, would it be by surprise?). All throughout his birthday "party" (I say party because he wasn't feeling well and we all kind of pooped out by 12), the two of us were running off to have "secret" conversations with our friends. It was very high school. I feel like sending him a note (via Liz and Alex, of course) saying "I heart you. Do you heart me? Check yes or no". It feels like we are back in the ninth grade.....

Oh well, at least this week I will maybe be going over to his place to watch Family Guy that I missed last week because we were watching Napoleon Dynamite. Maybe we will upgrade from a kiss on the cheek goodbye to a kiss on the lips? Probably not, but you never know if one of us will finally get the nerves to do SOMETHING!